When Icame back to Dublin,Iwas courtmartialled inmy absence and sentenced to death in myabsence, so I said they could shoot me in my absence.
Whether Iwas inmy bodyoroutof my bodyas Iwroteit I know not.God knows.george frideric handel
He showed me something small, no bigger than a hazelnut, lying in the palm of my hand, as it seemed to me, and it was as round as a ball. I looked at it with the eye of my understanding, and thought: What can this be? I was amazed that it could last, for I thought that because of its littleness it would suddenly have fallen intonothing. And Iwas answered inmy understanding: It lasts and always will, because God loves it; and thus every thing has being through the love of God.Julian of Norwich known as LadyJulian
You mustn't look inmy novel for the old stable ego of the character.